bright pink flats

yesterday i drove up (ok, rode up) to seattle with denice and her family to see her off to africa for a year. she is going to work with orphans in malawi. lucky! i hope i can join her there for a month or so sometime this year...we shall see...anyhow, there's something...anticlimatic about taking someone to the airport. there's all this build up, the drive, the goodbye, the tears -- and then all that happens is watching them go through the security gate. and then you leave to resume your own boring life. where's all the action?

i love seattle so it was nice to be there, even just for an afternoon. after denice left, her mom, sister, brother and i went out to this awesome thai restaurant in queen anne. so yummy! then we drove back down, which seemed to take about 6 hours. i was planning on sleeping to help pass the time, but instead i ended up yacking to beth and candice the entire way! i tried to stop at one point, assuming i must be annoying them extremely, but they insisted i keep going. talk about a trapped, captive audience! i paid a visit to the farthest vaults of my brain to retrieve as many funny stories as i could, and when i exhausted that supply, i bored them with the details of my so-called love life. needless to say, when we finally got home, i was pretty damn exhausted.

so i have a crush. actually, it's more than a crush...i really like someone. there's something so fun about the start of liking someone, even if nothing is happening or does happen. it's so weird...i just like him, and it makes me happy. and that's it. have i mentioned how freaking happy i have just been lately? at first i was like...ok...i'm enjoying my job! what's going on? i cant point to one particular source for this mysterious happiness, i think it's a combination of God, finding a church, making art for me, settling into my current life, variety at work, and perhaps liking this guy. for once in my life, i am enjoying things going slowly. in fact, i am content with it. it's surreal...but nice.

sometimes it can be hard to walk in a single woman's shoes. so, every once and awhile, she needs to have extra special ones, to make the walk a little easier. -- carrie bradshaw, sex and the city

planting heart seeds

right now i am wearing these kinda cute but also kinda hideous sherpa booties i got at the gap with a gift card. they are so comfy...the thing is, i think they would only really look cute on sarah jessica parker. but they are rad none the less. it never fails...i always think of so many great, amazing, life changing things to say when i'm miles away from a computer! come to think of it, i bet i'm never actually miles away from a computer.

i'm settling into a nice, sustainable routine with work and aparment living. every few days i go to the library to get new cds to sustain my need for music at work. the library rules because everything there is free! so, you don't get to keep it forever, but who cares, most cds i dont want to keep forever anyhow. lately i am all about frank sinatra. it's the perfect smooth listening for pumping out chalk art or lounging in the apt, or lounging at work when i'm supposed to be pumping out chalk art. ya know. also lately, everything either rules or blows. also, anything that is stupid (that blows) is an idiot. i love how my current venacular and inside jokes with friends are always changing. luckily (although posting this will probably change this fact) i think "heart of hearts" is phasing out in the land of me and bobo.

i am feeling so damn artsy lately! it rules. i want my apt to be a land where a myriad of artistic projects are always in different stages, and right now, it is. it makes for a pretty big mess, but who cares, i haven't made mcminnville friends yet. right now i am making myself a new journal, and it's the first real book i've ever really made and it is so fun. i dissected some old books and studied the binding to figure it out. i'm also working on a collage of sorts, but it's more like artistically defacing an old book. the book is bright yellow and is called "the broken heart: the medical consequences of loneliness." how cool is that? i'm going through and collaging and writing on lots of the pages, using the existing book as a background. i want to try and keep the scholary tone and make it a collection of things i'm learning about love, loneliness, and brokeness. for that last paragraph, i apologize if i bored any of my non-art major friends. i want to make so much art and so much music and put it all over town and see what happens.

if you wait for perfect conditions, you will never get anything done. be sure to stay busy and plant a variety of crops, for you never know which will grow...perhaps they all will.
-- ecclesiastes 11:4,6

down with edgar!

ok, i may have been wrong about where the most idiots in mcminnville are concentrated...i've now decided it's the library, not roth's. it's annoying enough that i have to come here to use the internet, sometimes next to really loud and unstable girls, but today...grr! i come in after work, at approx. 5:15, with a list of things i need to do online that i've been compiling for the last few days. you have to sign up on this dumb sheet, and no times were open, so, annoyed, i signed up for 6 pm and went to read a magazine. i come back at six, and not only is the computer i signed up for occupied, but the slot in which i wrote my name now reads "edgar." what the hell? so after tattling on edgar and some massive confusion on the part of the librarian, not to mention watching somebody who wasn't edgar getting evicted from the library (who knew that could happen?), i'm finally using the bloody stinking internet! edgar is sooo going down for this one.

what else do i have to say for myself? sometimes i get so mad about stupid things like edgar, i feel like i might explode! geez, calm down. last friday was my first day as a barista, and it was pretty cool...i love people! i have a new crush...and i realized i dont like an old one anymore, which is always a good feeling. i am kind of sick, but yesterday i worked all day anyway! go me. this place is swarming with internet users. i'm still quite poor and was dissatisfied with the size of my paycheck despite making absolute sure i didn't miss one minute of work this last pay period. alright, enough petty complaints. 150, 000 people died in asia last week, and this is what i have to say? geez louise.