12.11.2005

irrationality

i am so damn moody. and the thing is, my moodiness is irrational. take today for example...

trying to win a stuffed monkey from one of those game machines with the grabbing claw, and not suceeding after several tries...depressed.

finally winning the stuffed animal after using approximately fifty tokens...elation!

wanting to hang out with matt tonight but not being able to...sad.

finding matt the perfect christmas present...happy!

discovering the insane and creepy world of myspace, and viewing with morbid curiousity my former high school and college classmates...entertained.

spending so much time doing the previous activity that my shoulder cramped up and i found one of my best friends and saw that she had 179 contacts...depressed again.

what is up with myspace, anyway? people are freaking obsessed! i mean, it sucked me right in. i'm all for keeping in touch with people, but i like to exercise a bit of restraint for the purposes of my sanity. the lame thing is, i look at people's myspace pages and how many contacts they have and i feel like i have to catch up or else i am lame.

my shoulder hurts, and i've overdosed on the internet again. i think i'm going to be sick.

12.03.2005

my grown-up christmas list

why does food make me sooo happy? i started my last post with what i just ate, so what the hey, i'll do it again! two grilled cheese sandwiches, a bowl of delicious organic tomato soup, and the remainders of a container of ben and jerry's phish food. notice a common denominator? ice cream. i love ice cream.

yesterday i was driving home with matt, after a rousing double-date game of candlepin bowling, which i had never heard of in oregon, you use balls that fit in the palm of your hand and the pins are tall and skinny, and it's quite fun, although challenging, and we were listening the all christmas music, all the time radio station and what should come on but a cover of amy grant's holiday classic, my grown-up christmas list. i realize that amy grant's christmas album may not have been a part of your childhood christmases, but it was certainly a part of mine, and i belted that cheesy song out like there was no tomorrow. what with the song, and the time of year, i have decided to make a christmas wish list and post it here for all the world (okay, my friends, family, and those freaking idiots who keep spamming me).

what i want for christmas:

1. no more lives torn apart
2. that wars would never start
3. that time would heal all hearts
4. everyone would have a friend

JUST KIDDING! that's what amy grant wants for christmas! well, some of it anyway. she also wants right to always win and love to have no end, but whatever. it's a nice sentiment and all, but i think she's missing the point. isn't christmas about what people want for thier selfish little selves?

what i really want for christmas:

1. a label maker
2. a cheap sewing machine
3. a north face fleece
4. a flicker pro account
5. steve madden shoes
6. a website
7. a hands-free headset
8. sweaters
9. socks
10. underwear
11. acceptance to lesley's art therapy program
12. a mac laptop loaded with design software
13. a monthly bus pass
14. a blue queen size blanket
15. three weeks at home
16. a cure for laziness
17. a drumset
18. an art desk
19. books
20. sex and the city: the complete series dvd set
21. harsher punishments for parole violators...i mean, world peace! (miss congeniality)
22. really warm gloves
23. a really long, really thick, really warm scarf
24. a paper shredder with a credit card slot

okay, enough. see, the thing about me and christmas is, my happiness during and on christmas is not really related to whether or not i get these things. obviously some of them are a joke, or atleast a dream request that i threw in just for kicks, or things i'll have to just buy or earn for myself. all i really, really want is a label maker. i know it's odd, but it's true. what can i say? i love to label! ok, i want the paper shredder, too. identidy theft is a real threat these days, people! and i'm really sick of ripping my bank statements and old checks into tiny pieces and throwing the pieces away into three different trash cans. buy me a paper shredder, and i will no longer have to live my life in constant fear. thank you.

i feel really worldly and disgusting after this little exercise in html and consumerism. so don't let me to forget to mention a worthy cause AND great gift idea: world vision.

ok, i am nauseous from too much internet. ew.