what haunts my brain

In times of severe busy-ness (how annoying is it that you have to spell it that way because otherwise it says ‘business?’) I often find that the best way to write is to make lists or bullet points...thus I have decided to make this entry in such a fashion.

Amount of toilet paper I used today to blow my nose: one whole roll

albums of the month that I am now almost getting tired of but they are great: garden state soundtrack and low millions, ‘ex-girlfriends’

best advice received recently: always wear a scowl and carry a clipboard while outside of office at work (from dave and wil, fellow chalk artists)

best love advice received recently: always make sure you’re getting bells, whistles, and bugles and a little bit of water each day (orville roth, coolest company president and wise old man ever)

worst movie seen recently and movie I have gotten the most flack ever for criticizing: ladder 49

stupidest thing I did this week while bored and annoyed: threw a hula hoop onto a roof (yes, i retrieved it)

amount of books I want to read but don’t have time: too many to count

ok, enough with that. I’ve been living at the dixon’s and working at roth’s for a month now and they are both going splendidly. It is so nice to have a job that I like, making art, and to live somewhere in which I am completely comfortable. Last night shanna and I had a "how’s this arrangement working out" talk and she said her and david felt great about it. This made me very happy, as I tend to fear that people are going to say something bad about me at such times. Like, "hey liz...david and I were talking and we want you to GET THE HELL OUT!" irrational, I know, but such is life inside of my brain.

The area of discontent that is giving me the most trouble lately (besides the obvious one that always seems to top my chart, love and guys) is finding a church that I like and can be a part of. It is not an easy task! So if you read this, pray that I will find one soon. I know I need the support, I have recently been mentally struggling with something I never thought I would struggle with...but such is life in the real world, where you face real temptation. In a way I like the idea that no one is immune to any form of temptation...it’s a reminder to be careful and not assume a certain struggle could never touch you. It’s also another fight between feeling guilty and trusting God even in times of apparent sinfulness...yikes, it can get so confusing at times.

without you, I’ve been standing ‘round here like a statue...laying on the floor thinking about you...I talk to myself like the crazies do...otherwise I’m great...what about you? – low millions