suddenly i see

the title of this blog is not only the title of one of my current fave songs (kt tunstall rules, check her out) but it is also the perfect summation of how i feel. suddenly, i get it. or at least i get something. i get why i really want to take it slow with some one, to stop being so physical with guys, why the risk of loving someone is worth it.

i have had an absolutely amazing three days. late night walks and talks, summer romance on the grass, experiencing feelings i've never felt before. talking with strangers who make macreme in the subway station, and playing with little puppies. devouring books about art therapy with zest and motivation, and absolutely, 100% being in love with the place i live and the people i know here. and best of all, laying it all out there, being completely honest and having someone be completely honest with me, meeting someone i can be my whole crazy self around, and they actually find it adorable. to record the feelings, images, and conversations of the last three days would take forever, but the way i feel after them can be put very simply: suddenly, i see.

art can be said to be -- and can be used as -- the externalized map of our interior self. peter london

art is the meeting ground of the world inside and the world outside. elinor ulman

to paint what we see before us is a different art than painting what we see within us. carl jung

art is a way of knowing what we actually believe. pat b. allen

how do i show
all the love
inside my heart

well this is all new
and i'm feeling my way through the dark kt tunstall

suddenly i see
this is who i wanna be
suddenly i see
why the hell it means so much to me kt tunstall