moments

life is a series of moments...some beautiful, some tragic, some humorous, and some boring. those truly beautiful, poignant moments are so rare, but they are what make us willing to trudge through the boring and painful moments that take up so much of our lives.

there is a moment, in every relationship, where i attach. it is early on, perhaps too early on, and once i'm attached, that's it. the pain of loss is locked in, guaranteed, looming in my inevitable future. this attachment is not a conscious choice, it's not a choice at all. it is who i am to give myself to others wholeheartedly, to throw caution to the wind, to wear my heart on my sleeve. this practice is, in a word, dangerous. to truly know someone takes time and some degree of distance and objectivity, all of which are lost with such an early attachment.

there is a moment, in every doomed relationship, where one person seals themselves off from the other. they mentally throw in the towel, write you off, and declare your love a lost cause. even if the relationship trudges on, fighting the inevitable, that moment is when it is over. that is the instant when the possibilities end, and you are let go. the decision is made, and once that moment passes, you can never truly have that person back.

a moment can change everything.